It's been a long time...

Well, I have been wanting to make videos or write here for a while, I have so much to say. Sadly a lot of things have been happening in my life right now. As I said, I don't want to make this blog only for makeup. It's a bit personal too...
I have been through some very shitty times. I feel like I lost almost everything that meant the world to me. And I guess I am scared to start over, or at least not ready for it.

It's funny how we meet someone, all the sudden they are part of you, of your days... then they are gone.
Tomorrow is going to be one week since I broke up with someone I thought it was the one. We didn't fight, we both agreed that sadly the conditions we were going through couldn't do anymore. I guess that makes this incident harder on me. I still have huge feelings for this person, and no motives to say "screw him". Everyday when I wake up I wish I could read a "good morning" message or log into my facebook and see a link to a video with a song. When I come home from work I don't have anyone to send a message to. I don't have my bed flooded with teddy bears, my desk doesn't have pictures... it feels empty. 
I have been crying a lot, but somehow I am learning to be stronger. I approached some old friends too, some people I started a new friendship. It will take time to heal, and I am trying to be strong. Honestly I didn't expect to be on my feet again after two years in a half with him.

I haven't even put makeup on my face lately, I have eaten like a fat cow, and my room is messy... ah, I also shopped like crazy. Gladly everything still have tags, so over the weekend I have a lot of returns to do.
As of my eating, I am going to go back to healthy habits, meaning sleep around 1:00 -1:30 (since I work at night, I can't go to bed around 11-ish), eating well, going to the gym.

In may I am going to start an Esthetics course. Wish me luck!
Also starting college in September, I still don't know if I should go for fashion design or interior design.

Here's one of my favorite songs, hope you guys like it! ♥

Sorry for being so distant from everyone. I promise to make it up to you!