Still needs a title.

So, another "relationship" updating post I guess?

It's been over a month already. I don't cry as much anymore, or think of him the same way I used to. Just to think about him with another girl would kill me, now I know this is going to happen eventually, but somehow those years together will always be in his mind. Hopefully in a good way.

I think that I tried to do what everyone thinks is the best to do after a break up. I changed my hair back to blonde, I am trying to go back to Tight Lacing (I will be posting my progress once I start again, hopefully by Sunday.), going out a lot more than I used to, started to drink more too... But to be honest, no matter what you do, the number of guys you add to your phone and talk to, friends you go out with, ranging as much as you want, you will only find peace once you let it go.

I was talking to someone and I think I was trying too hard to see him as my ex-boyfriend, and of course they are different persons with different personality, so I guess I ended up hurting myself and I don't know if I did anything to him. I think he just wanted to get into my panties anyways lol

So I guess there are two more lessons I learned since everything happened.
1. Once you break up, don try to see your ex in someone else, IS NOT GONNA HAPPEN.
2. YOU WILL ATTRACT A SHIT TON OF ASSHOLES!

So keep that in mind!

I understand that most all of us girls, wants to love and be loved no matter what. Someone to share our days with, to text when we wake up, to talk to until late hours on the phone, to tease and please us. Meeting nice and responsible guys nowadays sounds so hard. So be careful with random weird jerks out there.

It is better to be broken than to break ♥

xoxo

Stefy

No matter what, be strong!

I have been listening to this song all time... makes me happy! Hope you guys like it too!

So... it's been almost two weeks since I broke up with my loved one.... I spoke with him twice since the fact happened. It made me feel more and more depressed. For the couple of days I didn't eat properly, I was staying in bed until 1..2 pm, watching TV and going to work, have some drinks and going back to bed.
However, yesterday I was working, and one of my co-workers said that one of her friends, that she was going out with, couldn't make it, and asked if I wanted to go, and I said yes. So I texted one of my friends and said I was going out with her, and he asked if I was going to meet some cutie, and I said that "No men at the moment". Then he replied to me "Now I understand why you are so sad...you are afraid of being alone. Being single does not mean that you don't have anyone to talk to at 2 am, no one to call or do things with. You have friends that care about you, and would do anything to make you smile" That was a long ass text message, but it made me realize the truth. I have always been scared of having a broken heart, to be made fun of, to let my guard down for once. I always feared that people would make fun of me, or not find me interesting enough, so I never let anyone in. Losing my boyfriend was looking like the end of the world to me.

I miss him a lot, everyday to be honest. I miss our routine... after all it's been 2 yrs and a half together. I have been wanting to send him one last email but I didnt want to send something sad, or with mixed feelings, I wanted to send something positive, without being fake. And I just did that, and I am proud to say that I wrote a gigantic ass email with a smile on my face.
Even if he never comes back to me, I can rest today knowing that HE knows what this relationship meant, how much he made me grow, and that i will never forget what happened between us. I told him that it was up to you, he doesnt have to talk to me if he doesnt want to, nor accept me back... But my heart still open, until when? I dont know...

In the end, the message I learned today, and wanted to show to others is pretty simple and easy to understand, most of us get it figured out, but when it happens to us, we feel so lost!

Do not be afraid of being single, because it does not mean that you are alone. Even with a broken heart, you need to see that sometimes things are not meant to be. But if you believe that it is worth it, try it one more time. However, a relationship does not depend entirely on you; learn how to understand that people have their own opinions too...
Love is the most amazing and crazy feeling someone can feel, makes you happy, makes you wanna "die".

Sugar Pill! ♥

Hello everyone!


Leaving the sadness aside for a little bit... I'm here to talk about Sugar Pill. I already had the pressed shadows and did a review on my Youtube Chanel, if you guys are interested in watching it.
Recently they did a 20% off sale, and I got some of the pigments they sell. Sadly the beautiful red one called Asylum was out of stock :(
I sent some pigments to friends and they loved it as well. It is a company that I highly recommend and believe it has great potential.
I got 8 pigments, and I believed I paid $72 with free shipping! Great deal huh?

Founded by Amy Doan, Sugarpill is a custom cosmetics line specializing in vibrant, richly pigmented, luxury pressed eyeshadows, sparkling loose powders, and ultra dramatic false eyelashes.

Website	http://www.sugarpill.net

(Taken from their facebook fanpage)

Overall Experience: 8.5 out of 10

Pros:

- Extremely fast shipping! I seriously was surprised of how fast they came.

- The price is great for the amount of product you obtain, however....* (see cons)

- Lovely customer service.

- Great facebook page.

- Vegan, not tested in animals.

- Flat rate shipping, or the option of free shipping once certain amount is expend worldwide.

- Easy to use website.

- Durable/ custom made jars.

- Cutest packing in the world!

- Visible information.

- Can be used wet.

- Free sample with purchase.

Cons:

- * Some jars came with a LOT less product than others. They do the jars by weight, since some pigments ARE heavier than others, you will have less product on certain pigments.

- No filter = messy.

- You NEED something to stick the pigments with (primer/base) otherwise it looks very sheer-ish.

- They do not have an option for samples only.

- Might take a while to have products back in stock.

- They just came out with new colors, but there's a lack of options.

Magentric

Darling

Stella (I wish the camera would have gotten more details of the holographic glitter)

Weekender

Magpie

Royal Sugar

Lumi

Decora

 

It's been a long time...

Well, I have been wanting to make videos or write here for a while, I have so much to say. Sadly a lot of things have been happening in my life right now. As I said, I don't want to make this blog only for makeup. It's a bit personal too...
I have been through some very shitty times. I feel like I lost almost everything that meant the world to me. And I guess I am scared to start over, or at least not ready for it.

It's funny how we meet someone, all the sudden they are part of you, of your days... then they are gone.
Tomorrow is going to be one week since I broke up with someone I thought it was the one. We didn't fight, we both agreed that sadly the conditions we were going through couldn't do anymore. I guess that makes this incident harder on me. I still have huge feelings for this person, and no motives to say "screw him". Everyday when I wake up I wish I could read a "good morning" message or log into my facebook and see a link to a video with a song. When I come home from work I don't have anyone to send a message to. I don't have my bed flooded with teddy bears, my desk doesn't have pictures... it feels empty. 
I have been crying a lot, but somehow I am learning to be stronger. I approached some old friends too, some people I started a new friendship. It will take time to heal, and I am trying to be strong. Honestly I didn't expect to be on my feet again after two years in a half with him.

I haven't even put makeup on my face lately, I have eaten like a fat cow, and my room is messy... ah, I also shopped like crazy. Gladly everything still have tags, so over the weekend I have a lot of returns to do.
As of my eating, I am going to go back to healthy habits, meaning sleep around 1:00 -1:30 (since I work at night, I can't go to bed around 11-ish), eating well, going to the gym.

In may I am going to start an Esthetics course. Wish me luck!
Also starting college in September, I still don't know if I should go for fashion design or interior design.

Here's one of my favorite songs, hope you guys like it! ♥

Sorry for being so distant from everyone. I promise to make it up to you!